i quit, i give up, nothing's good enough for anybody else, it seems....

No matter what i do,
no matter how i do it...
it's never, never going to be good enough....

you say that your happiness lies in my hands...
what made you think i could manage such heavy weight????
your whole happiness???
is there nobody i can at least share it with???
i really dont mind sharing you...just as long as you let me go!

i need to let go...
otherwise, i'm just going to snap...

somebody very dear to me, as usual somenone you dont like,
offered to take support and sustain my happiness....my life....
it sounds so, so tempting.....until you come into mind
and i realize just how screwed i am, that i will never leave you...

when are you going to realize that i deserve to have a life of my own?
without you and the ones surrounding you,
who "love" me, but hurt me so....

i know it sucks that i'm putting all of them in the same bag
but you just seem to relate to them in a way i never could...

if only i could shut out what my heart feels...
it just hurts TOO MUCH


...............

this is just me, using my favourite non fictional, breathing outlet...

stuff from the net

Llegué a tal punto de colapso total, que usé unos minutillos de tiempo "libre" (basicamente entre estudiar didactica y hace el trabajo de practica) pa buscar frases divertìas...... Aquí van algunas:

• I know I'm in my own little world... But it's ok, they know me here

• Be who you want to be, not what others want to see.

• Never hold farts in! They travel up you spine, into your brain and that's where shitty ideas come from!

• When life gives you lemmons, you should make lemonade. Then find someone who's life gave them vodka & HAVE A PARTY!!!!

• Last night, I lay in bed looking up at the stars in the sky and I thought to myself, WHERE THE HELL IS MY CEILING?!?!?!

• I am an angel, honest. These horns are just there to hold up the halo straight. XD

• Do what makes you happy, be with who majes you smile, laugh as much as you breathe, love as long as you live.

• If you see someone without a smile, give them yours.

• Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mistery, today is a gift (that's why it's called present)

• The only people you need in your life are those who need you in theirs.

• Life is too short to be anything but happy so: Kiss slowly, Love deeply, Forgive quickly, Take chances, Forget the past but remember what it taught you, Never regret what made you smile.

• Don't worry about the people in your past. There's a reason they didn't make it to your future.

• Smile, it's contagious.

• Love isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.

• Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've last seen them or the amount of time since you've talked last. It's about that very moment when you're doing something and you wish that they were right there with you.

• Sometimes people put up walls not to keep others out... but to see who cares enough to tear them down

• The truth is everybody is going to hurt you. You just have to decide who is worth the pain.

• Good girls are bad girls that don't get caught

• Smiling, it's the second best thing you can do with you're lips

=P

por el bien de los partidos involucrados, vamos a omitir todo tipo de comentarios....

"si la vida te da la espalda, agarrale el poto" no cierto?

bueno...la cosa es que la vida me pegó una pata' en la raja a mi porque me aproveché de su wena onda....

Como pocas veces en mi vida, las ultimas semanas de mi vida fueron la raja.... Conocí gente nueva, lo pasé bien, me estaba llendo bien, andaba contenta..... La embarré al vanagloriarme que todo estaba perfecto y que era así porque me lo merecía..... CRASO ERROR!!!!!!!!

De un día para otro la sonrisa se borró y aun no vuelve... tengo pena, pero no se porque... ando angustiada, pero sin razon....
y mas encima mi cuerpo me ta pasando la cuenta del invierno y me siento pesimo...

Perdoname Vida, porque me pusiste a mi principe verde musgo al frente, y por jactarme que lo había encontrado "de chiripa" y sola, me relajé y ahora lo perdí.....
=(