lonely, i am so lonely, i have nobody for my own....

Our deepest fear - Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you NOT to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.


The first time I heard this poem, on a movie, my arm hairs stood up, I got the chills, and I started crying......
I don't really know why but it just got me....


I'm in a point in my life where friends stop really mattering and your close-knit group start getting smaller.... You have less friends, but the ones that you keep feel closer somehow....
At the same time, though, having less friends tends to back-fire 'cause you have less options to pick from when you're lonely.......sometimes it's like there all busy at the same time and no matter how much you feel you're drowning you don't want to push them away by being insistent....

It's at time like these that I resent not having somebody.... I usually LOVE being single, but I have these rare moments where I'd love to have a special someone to have next to me unconditionally......someone that no matter how busy they are, they'll always be there for you....

I just hope I don't stay alone forever....